a surprise date

     last night, I did't know why I couldn't close my eyes. I keept wondering in my heart, what really became my load tonight, so I'm never awake at night wore on. Drowsiness did exist in my mind, but whether these two were heavy eyelids to close hours is shown at 2 nights, and I never sleep. more and more lonely and quiet evening. I decided to try to sleep accompanied by the music in my ears. when morning came I saw the full calendar accidentally crossed last year ... praaakkk what's this? in my mind to ask. god why did you let me remember this date, I really don't want to remember. I want everything new in my life, if any should be to let him be my friend only, no heroics I asked various trials that hit me, maybe this is a form of divine affection. a surprise date for early May will not be sad and cry made me go back again.  :)